Okay, so it's week two of this, and I don't know.  Last week kind of sucked, I didn't really try at all.  This week...not too bad of a start at all.  I usually start everyday off with a soda which I get on my way to school.  So far today...so good.  I think that's my biggest one.  The soda ordeal.  I drink a lot of it.  I think that maybe if I start hacking of one bad habit after the other...things might get better.
Wanted to join a gym here in town...after budgeting like a mad woman, I still found no extra cash in sight, so now what?  Well, on Tuesday and Thursday I have about a two hour break in between classes.  My little man is still at daycare, SO I think I'm going to see what the gym here is like.  It's free, so that's always a good thing.  No trainer, and I'll have to shower in between classes, but it's free...that will make up for it I suppose.
I'm really hoping that smaller changes will help stem into bigger ones.  For now I'm just going to start out with the working out a couple days a week, mostly to get used to it and figure out what in the world I'm doing.  And then also trying to at least cut back on the not so good for me things like soda....fingers are crossed...and here we go into another week.

So, today is my first day of my "diet" and I'm really not off to a very good start.  Had a brownie for breakfast...what in the world?  I spend all night thinking "I should really start a diet tomorrow" and what's the first thing I do?  Eat a brownie.  Not so okay.  I don't really know how well this is going to work.  I know that I really need to make some serious changes.  I'm NOT happy with the way things are.  I really need to make better food choices. 
I know that I need to start working out a little more.  And considering that I don't work out at all, it shouldn't be too big of a problem.  After Caleb came along...I guess I've just been so busy with him to pay attention to how much I've actually been gaining.  I don't pay attention to the things that I eat...I don't work out...I don't do anything.  I'm not surprised that I've gained as much as I have.  I mean...I DO eat a lot.  There's no question about that.  I just really don't know how to go about getting to where I want to be. 
I think that the most important thing for me to do is make some baby goals to help make the road to my BIG goal more achievable.
What I really would like to do is just start off with simple workout goals and diet goals. 

1)  I'd really like for the next couple of weeks to make sure that I only take in about 1200 calories a day. 

2)  I'd really like to start working out like 3 days a week for like a half an hour.  Even if it's just getting in a quick walk.

3)  I NEED to seriously cut back my soda intake.  Along with my alcohol intake.  I should just quit them both all together.  Nothing but empty calories anyways.  With the amount that I drink...I could probably cut a BUNCH of calories right there.

4)  I want to lose about 1-2 pounds a week.

I think with just these...it would help out a LOT!!!  We'll start out here...and see how it goes.  So, yeah...checking in right now....187 and no more brownies for breakfast.