Today is the first day of my personal weight loss challenge. My boyfriend, his sister and I have all decided on today to start making changes to our eating and activity habits. We are all very over weight, and we really need to do this. I have struggled with my weight since I was about 14. I am now 25 yrs old and hate who I am. 11 years of making bad choices and not loving myself enough to change it. I want 2009 to be the best year of my life. I would like to lose about 70 lbs. It seems like a daunting task, but I know I can do it.

We all know what we need to do to lose weight, it is just actually doing it. I don't need a special diet or some magic pill. I know all I need is to eat healthy and to exercise. I feel so ugly right now. None of my clothes fit. I have noticed how unfit I am recently while doing certain activities. I went sledding with my family and getting back up the hill is never fun, but I had a more difficult time than I ever have, this time. I am at my highest weight ever. I have gone up and down. About 1 1/2 ago I was feeling great about losing about 25lbs. Then, my gym membership was up and I didn't have the money to renew. I said to myself that I don't need to pay $45/month, I can do it myself. Well, don't we all say that? Within this 1 1/2 I have gained back what I lost with an additional 20lbs added bonus. I think I felt so crappy about gaining back what I worked so hard to lose that I went into a depression, and stopped caring what I ate. I was too lazy to exercise. I also changed jobs in this time. I went from a job that required a lot of movement and lifting to a job where the only thing I need to lift is a pen, with hardly any movement. I am just as unhappy with this job as the one I left for it. I really would like to find something better. I feel that my weight has held me back from having a good job. I don't have the confidence to get a new job or to go to school. I want both of these things.

Well, that is all the time I have for now... more later.

I am going to do this, just wait!